“Without the Mission, I know I would be dead.”

Alana is the proud mother of an amazing 19-year-old boy named Nicholas.  Although they have an incredible relationship today, it was not always the case.  Alana comes from a long line of alcoholics, and her family worked hard at presenting a normal appearance to the outside world but on the inside it was far from the truth.  She said, “In my family you were taught that big girls don’t cry.  I was supposed to do everything on my own because it was weak to need anybody.  I was angry and hurt and I learned quickly that drugs were an escape from painful thoughts and feelings.  Using drugs made me feel powerful and for ten years I was under their spell.”  When Alana became pregnant with her son Nick, she was able to stay clean for three years, but she began to use, sell, and make drugs, which led to trouble with the law.

When she was released and out on bail, she realized that she could be locked up for 12 years.  Alana said, “I began to look at this hole I’d dug for myself.  I swallowed a bunch of Methamphetamine (speed) and had a loaded gun in my lap.  I prayed ‘God forgive me for what I’m about to do.'”  Thankfully, she woke up to a friend pounding on her door and asked for help.  He told her about the Mission and she filled out an application and was accepted.  Alana is the Mission’s Outpatient Treatment Coordinator and celebrated eleven years clean and sober this year.  Alana said, “I am so thankful that I did not pull that trigger.  Without the Mission, I know I would be dead.”